SoulSpeak

Morning Meditation- 10/20/2025

Before I share my thoughts I was just reminded that today, October 20th, was the birthday/born-day of my soul sister and dearest friend and confidante, Christina May. I sometimes wonder if I have had a truly heartfelt shared conversation with anyway since her transition. Peace to her as she continues to rock and roll in the spirit world.

I started writing in this space several years ago and stopped as I allowed simple obstacles to hinder my creative expression. I since then completed a long term project, much love to my friend Chris, when I got my first book of poetry and prose published. There’s so much to learn about any endeavor since sometimes the project completion only leads to new curriculums. Well, I’m restarting my conversations with the world of blogging, or whatever it’s called now. So here goes.

This morning meditation class was on Anger. It was what was needed. I started out being confused and irritated because I thought it was a repeat of last week’s class. Then, I realized it was a continuation of sorts to the program I listened to last night on YouTube with Ms Blue, The Soulful Oracle. This meditation gave me support for the work ahead of me for this week, the establishment of boundaries within and for myself. The focus of the meditation was simple and direct (I guess so).

May I Learn To Care About This Pain

I began to unravel how I feel about anger and pain. ( I heard Frankie Beverly’s Joy and Pain in my head). The more obvious one is how I feel about pain. The origin of the pain is important yet I began to see/feel how I respond to pain. My first response is anger. I don’t like hurting, So it shows me that fear and sadness are the underpinning of the anger. I feel incredible sadness at being hurt or hurting. If I caused it, the anger comes more quickly. If it comes as a result of something or someone else, the first emotion is sadness. What did I do to earn or receive this treatment or event? After and as I contemplate this, the fear begins. Will I recover? If it’s my body the questions involve doctors, treatments and long term effects on the/my body. If it’s a relationship, the sadness of experiencing a person who is important to my life, regardless of the capacity, treating or responding to me in a disagreeable manner. And then the anger. Now the second part of the meditation.

May I Have Compassion For What I Feel…and I added, May I Have Compassion For How I Feel

While it has been said and written,’what you can feel , you can heal’, I experienced how little compassion I have for myself with several of my feelings. Anger, irritation, outrage, joy, love…the level of embrace and acceptance from me for me, requires more attention from me. It seems as if its another aspect of self-disregard. Self disregard is another way of saying low self-esteem or low self love, it would seem. I care so little for this imperfect self, that I give myself no compassion. It makes perfect sense that I receive this same treatment from others. I inform others, I teach or train others, from individuals to corporations, how to treat or interact with me through how I treat myself. Self-disregard models to others to disregard me or give me little value. We really do and are creating our world, our life and how events will present themselves.

Todays meditation gave me a window into my current self behavior and I so appreciate Shelby and the VA classes available to me. I will continue to expand my compassion for myself when I feel anger, sadness or fear. I will expand my acceptance of the reasons for the feelings I have. I see that caring about my pain supports my ability to be compassionate in my self-care. As I responsibly care about myself, I create and contribute positive energy and frequency into the collective human experience. May my expanded peace radiate and create a more prosperous world for all of us.

Peace